Silent

I have something to say.

Something that you may not want to hear.

Something that scares me.

Something that I have a hard time admitting.

But I can’t say it. 

I just can’t. 

It’s just too difficult.

Too embarrassing. 

Too humiliating. 

It’s not that I can’t find the words.

It’s not that I am speechless.

It’s just that once I say these words aloud

You will see me as a I am.

And you will never be able to unsee that sight.

And so, I hold this truth inside of me.

And so, I choose silence.